What is your say to it??

At times there are evenings, which enables one to think towards a particular direction. And as the saying goes, an empty head is the devil's place and there i found myself fitting to it's best.
Yesterday evening i & my cousin were talking amongst ourselves & were discussing various incidents of each other's. Somehow we moved to the topic of almighty & the conclusion drawn out in the nutshell was that, though, we haven't seen him, still it is something we even can't comment upon. Itis not because of any scardness or so, itz simply because that though it didnot happen to us, but we do have several incidents of others to follow in a line.
The same crept moving in my mind & there were certain odd questions popping out. Just like the presence of almighty, following the queue was the behavior of an individual.

I was wondering as to what is that, which actually defines the behavior of an individual. External or the internal factors or both. To describe in brief is it the environment he/she is currently living in or is it the background of the family he/she comes from? Are the experiences he faced in life responsible for the same or the inner self we talk about?

there is one more point, I would like to discuss upon. just consider a person in a misery. What is it that he is looking for. "A Solution". Not just to his miseries, but also, for the reason as to why such happened to him. now the third party who is sought after for the solution finishes it up in a single liner" Dekh bhai agar to tu kissi internal factor ki wajah se pareshaan hai tab to sochte hain lekin agar external factors ne tereko itna pareshaan kar dia hai ki woh teri perimeter ki diwaar to todkar tereko hilla sakta hai tab to bhai mushkil hai. Fir to tereko sochna padega. Tab to kuch nahin ho sakta".

Now, i would like to ask as to how would you define to yourself as to what is an external factor & what is an internal factor. And following the same who decides as to what is the duo. Is it you or again is it the third party factor deciding for you?

Taking a small example of a job being considered as an external factor. You are single with no responsibilities it's just like a teenage crush which can either be cherished for a period of time or can be crushed at any moment without any reason or explanation.. It may be easy in this regard, but let's consider a different example. A person who's entire family is banking upon his month2month salary & suddenly for no reasons the job is gone. Now what would you say to it external or internal.

As per any third person it's external as the second can be grabbed upon. But, what about the concerned person & his family. Let's talk in terms of him. What is it external or internal. he is hurt not because he lost a job or for his own sake, but, because he would not be able to sustain the needs and demands of the family for a period of month and various other necessities banking upon the last day of the month which they used to look forward towards to.

In recent times,we have several writers, writing upon personal motivation, growth, learning etc. but would like to simply ask them as to what solution would they provide to such an individual. Which motivational theory would do to them at the hour of the need because everybody on the earthknows what is right and what is wrong, but, even then, works as per the situation in demand.

I would like to ask that at the time when things were in proper place the person is witty, vivacious, outspoken, but with the sudden change what should be the behavior one would like to see? How much is it relevant to expect the same from him when he himself is not in good mental health & also the story goes into the fashion that because he has been hurt of external factors, so nobody can help him too. But would expect or rather desire to see him as to what he was previously.

Now what is your say to it....He is guilty because he is not able to compromise as per the new situation or the fault lies in his brains that he is not able to cope up as quickly as the third person???

I M Hunting 4 patience 2 step in my Life

Today when i was sitting i was wondering when was it the last time i laughed to my fullest. I tried to figure out as to what is that which is hurting me so badly. why is it that i am not able to find my ownself. This is not me. i was never like this. All sad and worn out. There was a time when i was filled in with wittiness. I could make not just myself but also people laugh with me. and i used to cherish those moments. we used to giggle around, have fun and even make fun of others. But it appears as if it has been years since i am thinking about.

is it that i have started taking myself so seriously or is that i have stated taking life so seriously. M not sure as to whether either of the cases is true and has taken away my liveliness from me.

in this sudden years of recession God has blessed me with a cherished job. I have a darling fiance who loves me truly and so do I. But still somewhere i m pained. I have even realised that.

things even worsened up past two days. I joined herein as a Management trainee and was with a department for two months wherein i was into shifts. They gave me an option of switching to other department to which i got agreed. For another 5 months i was in different department, the one with which i am still continuing with. The sad story being we were 6 wen we stepped in out of those they confirmed 3 and for 3 they extended it for further 4 months.
Saddest part being that i am the one who are extended. the worst part of the same being that it was because of a bad remark by sm1 that i didnot get confirmed. The higher authorities didnot consult my current senior officals and made the decision based on the one with whon i have worked for 14 morning days. I am hurt and pained.

The story went even more sad when my senoior most current official of my department said that he would be helping me in the same, but the official in lower position than him need proper confirmation as to whether i am meant for his department or not.
If yes, he would help me in different fashion and if no, then in different. His words to me were i should decide as to whether live in the organization or to resign from the organization.


I dont understand as to why he is behind me in leaving the organization. It just been 8 moths of my carrer life and i am facing all these stuff. My heart is pained. i did whatever was required and still i am hearing all these words.

I dont know what to do. How to go about the things. My brains are not working properly. The rest two are calm and quiet.

Should thios me my fashion too to proceed ahead?

C!-!ecK DeM 0uT!!!!!!!!!

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Are v Ve@k!!!

It gave me pleasure to see the unexpected. But its motivating to have such positive responses.Today wat i'll write will begin with a question and wld like to c suggestions on the same.

"Are v weak? Y does it happen that v are more affected from our external factors and in the sequence of the same just forget as to whre and in wat our true happiness lies?"

I was almost in panic condition, which compelled me to move to my bed for a nap, after a long time in afternoon. It has been years, since I have slept during my day hrs.
I just wanted a response. Negative or positive was not dat important for me at dat hr, but, a response was necessary. I had the gut feeling that I could & would crack it. During my pre-placement talk I had the intution dat dis is my place & I'm gonna get into it.

My eyes half open & half closed were somehow stuck to my mobile. Is dis wat v call an intution? I received my friend's call & the voice screamed congratulations!!!. I couldn't understand as to whether dat was a reality or dis is the dream I wanted to dreamt @ dat hour? It took me a couple of minutes to regain myself for the fact, which I earnestly desired for.
For the first time ever in my life till now I enjoyed the beauty of the statement which says" dat d beautiful couple in the universe are !!!....Te@r$ & Dre@m$.....!!!, dey rarely meet nd wenvr dey do, dey create a rainbow".
And so, the same was in front of me. the rainbow of hope,desire, hardwork, willingness, blessings, dreams. hurriedly, I rush to the college. out of 66 in all dere were just 6 who got selected for the same. The voices kept moving around my ears for congratulating me on the same, but, I was as if has lost my nerves for the same. I could not sense it. I just wanted my family to knw abt it as soon as possible. Dat day I cursed myself for not keeping even a penny in my mobile. Wen I told dem dey had tears of joy and I knew it. I cant express in words as to how much satisfied I felt @ dat moment.
The rosy days passed in a week or so and den came the season of sarcasm. half of the classmates were into it. Y girls? wats so special in dem & all sort of jerk questions.
I remember, once while reading sm1's interview , there was a statement, which in crux meant dat "d most difficult thing in life is to be always optimistic".
I was finding it happening correct. The external factors were overpowering me & I had no clues as to how do I come out of it. I knew wat was going in evrybd's mind, but, was dat true, dat I couldn't sense it just coz @ dat moment it din't happen wid me?
I wonder now is dis materialistic? Is it wrong to feel happy for your own hardwork? Is dere anything wrong in fulfilling the desires of your family?

These questions kept burgaling my mind day in and day out & I had no ans for da same. For today i would like to hold myself here to find the answer for the same.

Till den
Regards!!

The F!r$t Le@flet!!!!!!

I was wondering, as to hw a first time blogger respond. Wat shld be the first topic to begin with. Should it be personal, or a funny note or some revolutionary sentence that should attarct more public towards me. is dat wat i am looking forward to??

Actually speaking I wanted to pour my heart down; if not to all, atleast to some!!. In dis fast moving world I strongly feel that dis blog would help me in finding the real self in me & may be some similar headed folks too....

Would like to pen dwn on this introductory note and c u all wid smthng new from my pen.

Till den.

Regards!!!